Last night, we talked on the phone. It didn’t seem like anything special because its the norm for us to talk on the phone. The clock struck midnight and you let out a little gasp. I paused and asked, “What?” Then you chimed in a joyful voice, “Happy Valentine’s Day, lub!” I smiled, and said the exact same thing as you did. I waited for you to continue the conversation, but instead you said, “Sami Takahashi, will you be my valentine?” I could feel my heart melt.
Last night, we webcammed. I was surprised that you wanted to webcam. Prior to last night, I honestly don’t remember the last time we webcammed. It was adorable how eager you were. It was weird hearing your voice over the webcam. I know we talk on the phone all the time, but a lot of the time, your voice sounds muddled and far away. But on the webcam, if was as if you were right in front of me, as if you were with me. Your webcam wasn’t working and I was somewhat disappointed that I couldn’t see your face, but hearing your voice sufficed. You kept telling me to hold on and I wondered what you could be doing. Our webcam call disconnected and you called me back. Instead of your avatar picture, I saw your face. Albeit pixel-y and grainy, I saw your face. An overwhelming sensation of happiness overcame me, and I couldn’t stop smiling. I couldn’t believe that it was true. You and I were both all smiles; that is, until I started to cry. Seeing you on Valentine’s Day made me so incredibly happy, but also made me miss you that much more. That webcam call made up for the fact that we cannot physically spend Valentine’s Day together. I went to bed with a smile on my face and a full heart.
Lub, I treasure every moment I get to spend with you, whether it be in person, on the phone, or via webcam. I miss you so much, but I’ll see you soon, my lub.